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10/09/01 - Wednesday - 11:50 pm
Snow White, still pretty cool, someday my prince will come, and when we meet, he'll steal a kiss or two.. Grumpy is who i think i resemble most, sigh... Beauty and the Beast, all i wait for..

09/24/01 - Monday - 11:30 pm
Reading, reading Stephen Kings work, Hearts in Atlantis, second book of his i've started in for a long time... it's not the way i used to remember his writing from before, used to be horror, now more fiction and suspense. Still not bad, Dark Tower i hope it makes to stores soon, i think this semester gonna be a bookworm, it's been long and i htink i need to catch up alot. A history teacher, ya, that's the way i feel now, i wanna be a little of that, show movies, how things weren't the way they always are now. My mind's starting to fade i think, it's not the same as it was a day ago, but that's true for everybody... i'm not on the verge of breakdown, but if i get pushed i will fall... that's all for now, it's done, the typing, the thinking for tonight, no more reading king it seems like *sigh*

09/22/01 - Saturday - 12:31 am
one of the planes that crashed in wtc was Q33NY, font 26 wingdings, do it!

And they called it puppy love
Oh, I guess they'll never know
How a young heart really feels
And why I love her so

And they called it puppy love
Just because we're in our teens
Tell them all it isn't fair
To take away my only dream

I cry each night my tears for you
My tears are all in vain
I'll hope and I'll pray that maybe someday
You'll be back (you'll be back)
in my arms (in my arms)
once again (you'll be back in my arms once again)

Someone, help me, help me, help me please
Is the answer up above
How can I, how can I tell them
This is not a puppy love

Someone, help me, help me, help me please (ah ah ah ah)
Is the answer up above (ah ah ah ah)
How can I, how can I tell them
This is not a puppy love
not a puppy love, oh oh oh, ah ah ah
not a puppy love, ooooh

09/21/01 - Thursday - 9:06 pm
ya know, about that thing in japan involving certain persons, i guess i was wrong, heh.. well just got to be more wary next time, look out for making myself being dumb, but it's clear now at least. ya, happiness still found in something, i just go to go find it now...

09/11/01 - Tuesday - 5:16 pm
A DAY OF INFAMY
Bad SHIT happening in the world... They say this day will change how things will look for our generation... This morning i remembering trying to help taka with his homework, and miles doing it, then talking about the genitortures/Machine concert. now the World Trade Buildings have collapsed, and everything around it is gotten weak already or is already gone. two 747 crashed into both buildings of the Trade Towers, one hit the Pentagon, they say it's a terrorist thing. American Airlione no. 111 and 11 and 77, and United Airlines 175.
Very bad shit happening, THE NATION WAS SHUT DOWN TODAY, the FIRST time. alot of firefighters were lost, the one taht tried to help, the first fleet, it's gone bad. Some say, the hijacking involved knife-like weapons. I think now, we will no longer live like we used to live, they say security measures will go up, more cameras, more searching, not gonna be the safetest place to be anymore. Damn the collapse looks really bad....
they ran and they knew it was gonna come down, they say wait a few days, let the sheep begin to think that life's gone back to normal, then strike, make the horror take home into their hearts. What shall they do now? Life will continue tomorrow, and now, the commitment of full resources to the idea of finding the killers / hijackers, it's gonna be very bad, the fight is at hand now, what will we choose?
They are thinking it may be Arabs, heh, could be, maybe it's american, no on knows yet... but we will see won't we. so bad this has come. declaration of war, is that such a good idea?
HAAHAH, they say it's time to choose sides, who will be with us... You're either with us to go against Terrorism or you're are enemy, this is a done deal for Terrorist Expert Dunnegan.
End of TraNSMission for now 5:56 pm

09/11/01 - Tuesday - 1:09 am
ya, that's right burning the Midnite OIL, *bleh* finally finished reading a book in god how long, now if only i could find ny stranger in a strange land, need grok of course. MILES STOP READING THIS !!!///!!!///!!
ah, anyways, finally get to wrok out when i leave class today, time to burn some of the fat away, i'm still waiting for that moment darn it, the women with the tiger teeth ain't running towards me, sad....
it's been long of course, days are running shorter, and now i feel quite sleepy, i want some horror movies and a musicla or two, need a little happiness i think. ya i guess this is done now, they filled my belly with water the other day, ack, o well..
this is the last transmisson from the supreme high commander for now, V' [' ' ]'V ((Fart FAST and FURIOUSLY!))

08/16/01 - Thursday - 9:48 pm
hmph, birthday passing like most of the other ones *shrug* guess it's to be expected. Andrew done painting house, good i guess. i need to return scanner, bleh, no one could give ride. how gay... 21 and i'm still dry as a whistle, shoulda just went out and bought some alcohol. o well. school starting soon, depression, watched another DVD, anime is starting to wear me down i think, maybe just finish the last of the stuff i really really want, i'm dying from it. talked to taka earlier this morning at 12:00 ~ `1:30 am, he go have time with dad. ugh, i need a shower, almost done writing this thing, writing takes too much, well typing does, starting to not care. bleh, i need a drink, shower or drink, shower or drink, o well full day of work tomorrow, can't screw off anymore when school starts, hours are being cut for classes. thank god i'm cutting down on DVDs, i need to find a car. God life is getting boring, but i won't become a bible pusher or a bible reader! Miles said hi, that was it. life is really getting me down, or just dumb boredom is, i really need to find something else to do. Dont know if i should go back, maybe though, one more time, at least... heh, only me reads this stuff anyways, well mostly me. yah, i think i got to agree with my left half on this one, i'm gonna go and shower, karasu was his name, the guy with the glasses from shibuya. heh, o well, i'm done i think. ya, nite, 21, at least i can drink without worries now. *sigh*

08/10/01 - Friday - 1:02 am
my girl :
i forskae my life for the rest of the night, find me some women tomorrow, perferably where they stomach dont' go past their chest, and like cute, and if they have tiger teeth in a cute non-terrifying way [+_+] i like them then, alright

paint is hard to remove from arms and hair, doh! Tomorrow, tomorrow, DEG, tomorrow will come, Zhang ZiYi from Rush Hour 2 is fucking cute as hell, ya damn straight

07/23/2001 - Monday - 5:42 pm
Happiness is a fruit punch capri sun... yum!

07/22/2001 - Sunday - 11:16 pm
damn tonight, it's depressing.... <sigh> once again managed to be wrong about wienerschnitzel and their $0.69 chili cheese dogs, bleh, always wrong about semthign like that it seems like. And today it seems like everyone is banking it on that damn 2by2 thing, me, i'm still working in a minimum wage job and dont even have a future to work on, seems like everyone moving ahead, and i'm still here, standing in the same spot i've always stood in, well not same spot because you got to use the restroom sometimes. Damn, i hope i have a future, but sometimes hoping for a future aint enough i guess. go figures, funny thing, i ran into a quote that Sean once told me a long time ago, it was "life is a tragedy for those who feel, and life is a comedy for those who thinks," funny i should hear soemthign like that so many years later in a fortune wookie, so many years later, and the friends i used to know disappears already, been long since i've seen him, maybe clsoe to a year now that i think about it, i'm always gonna misspell it seems like when i do this.
So today, i wonder about the things i did, if they even seem worth it, i mean everyone says you should go to college and suffer the short term to make your long term better, but when i look around, some dont even need college to bank on the money that they recieve. So is college worth it after all? I dont even have an interest to go into. MAYBE LIFE FOR ME IS A TRAGEDY?! ARRGH, bleh, and all that junk, I wonder if the friends that i had when we were poor and not so much money will still be my friends after they end up making a fortune? Or will it be like TV, they leave because you're no longer in the same circle, and the interests that you used to have, be meaningless to them when they're rich, while for us it's the greatest shiznic in the whole wide world.
UGH, that's all's left to say, will my friends still be around when they make it big, while i stay and bum? Feel like killing myself, but i guess that ain't it, it's not the way out, everyone got their way to do thing, for me, i'm just being lazy? who knows, i just want fun, i dont' want to deal with normal life, i wanted a house before i was 30, but ain't happening i guess.
i wanted to do something worthwhile, but i'm not grown up enough to decide my future, not yet, not time, not ready to go the limit, sigh.

07/19/2001 - Thursday - 11:19 pm
next rant, Christ what the hell do i write?@@@! it looks weird when i read it again, and yes it's a 3 headed monster

07/19/2001 - Thursday - 11:09 pm
I like fruit punch capri sun... duh... listening to lareine, i knew i shoulda go the doogie howser theme instead, i can just hear vinnie crawling through my windwo. yes email is talbain_jon@hotmail.com
anyways, it's late, i finally got around to giving the film to develop yesterday. less work next semester, i'm sad, need more hours, need vacation time actually, paid~ vacation... What time is it, i feel tired,, i always feel tired, double commas are weird looking, i should learn to write, i'm still writing to myself, but i shoudl write to josleef, then i can look sorta like josef. that's all the update, ya for now.

07/02/01 - monday - 9:00 pm
new rant - school bites ass!! i wish i wasnt fed lines when i was growing up and going through schools, i wish in high school my teachers woulda said i was gonna be a loser and not let me take those damn advanced classes, i wish they didnt say o you got to take biology before you take everything, thne chem. Taking all those classes was a waste of time to me. Years after HS now, i'm still not getting anywhere, i'm still stuck in a JC, the only things that were ever worth it were my friends, that's all, I can't even plan a future, i know nothing that i'm supposed to do. and the worst to me right now is i got fucking b'sss, it's like the ones that start with BS. I wish the teachers i was taking for this semester had told me "Joe, you should face it right now, no matter what you do, if you do the work, screw around on the test, you're gonna get a B, you screwed up your chances to get an A already, realize that," Christ almighty, i wish they had told me this, i coulda gone home, watched TV and actually enjoyed life a little, but no, no one wanted to tell me, they jsut said, o you're all borderline, i heard madonna now, damn it i'm hallucinating, borderline, and you should continue to work hard because with enough work you'll be able to get an A, i hate it, they made me stay there forever, do you know 18 weeks is a hella long time, it's a season's worth of episodes in TV, Ling still looks hot in Ally McBeal, god i coulda had sleep, i coulda had jsut time for myself... God all i damn want is a bit of time for myself, but i swear i've been tricked by the teachers, if i knew the truth that all i woulda got was a b no mattter what, i woundt even have stayed in there. Now i wish i had just finished high school without them making me think "if you work hard, you'll make it" the sad truth is you don't, it might work for some, but the rest like me, you just killed all ambitions, all we wanted was some fun, a little time to relax, i wish i had a 1600 on the fucking SAT, or even a 1200, all i got was a fucking 1190, always second best being fed the line, you could make yourself a better person, but i think too many years of that has finally made me hate the rest of school, i'm tired of stupid kids saying school made them a bad person, face it, you're all like me, second best being fed the best line, school sucks, kids have problems, they should face it, screw trying to blame it on other kids, someone's got to teach their kids the truth, the actions are because of them.

6/30/01 - Saturday
I'm back, time is 8:49 am, it's been a week since i've been back from my camping trip. Note to self, it sucks waking up this early, no one is up and i feel tired as hell, i guess the jet lag finally kicked in. In a few days i go to AX '01. This year's been fun, so much fun, but maybe i'm getting burned out on the idea of fun, my body can't handle it and i think i need recoup time. The people i've emailed hasn't said anything since i left for camping, i'm sad :(. (that's drool) DAmn it, stupid David, he took off like a bird too, ergh Az veeter ve return-ing within the summer, and not stay there forever.
I know no one reads this now, i can see the truth, maybe i shoulda just kept an online journal, because that's what it feels like i'm really doing, i'm my only fan of this site, sad but true, but then it don't hurt, no one sends mail to you and no one wants something i guess. Got to go find TAka's email or something, got to keep writing to nicole, she's only busy, that's why no mail, i'm hoping; her friend surprised me.... mi-chan and k-chan are probably are kareoke and kazuki is probably sticking chopsticks up his nose :P can't forget the people i met there, i hope to never forget at least, even though it might be unimportant, still got to make a chance at remembering everyone, so i guess gonna list to myself.
Kazuki [ Taka's friend, no beer for him, only calpis chuhai], nicole [nikoru[, misaki, matthew, peter, xavier [xaviee, dont' say xavier or he'll hate you], monica [nicole's sister], charmy [nicole's roommate], kazuya [glasses], ito, mei, wada, kelly [kyari], toshi, mi-chan [mitsuyo], k-chan [keiko[, kazuki, sasuke, andreas, saki, takeshi, yohei, takako, akane, mizuho, daisuke, saiyo [deg], that's all i can remember for now, ssigh.

Now i keep my distance, once bitten and twice shy, tell me baby, do you recognize me? it's been a year, well, doesnt surprise me....

5/15/01 -- Tuesday
I'm almost ready to leave for Japan, 2 weeks left, i've got to make a link to my DVDs, because damn it everyone keeps borrowing and no one's telling me what they got, so here's the link
O ya, AX '01 is coming up and i think i'm ready for it too, anime and more anime, great all i need to eat up all my money. sigh, that's it for now i think.

1/13/01 -- Saturday
Well this is been a while I guess, notes to myself. I am amazed at the creativity found in This Old House and Martha Stewart's Living. Man these shows are awesome when nothig else is on, actually they ain't too bad at all especially with all the ideas they can give you. AShh collecting anime is still expensive, but at lest it looks like anime on DVD is starting to get cheaper nowadays. Asian Jerky is awesome too! alright tha's all to self, good nite.

6/04/00
Damn it's pretty late for me right now, what with it being like 4:40 AM PST, ack o well, got a question I just thought of at this time, Does anyone tht bothers to come here ever have the feeling that whatever they're doing doesn't really exist and taht they're just looking through but with no real purpose? Alrighty that was all i could think of at the moment, That'll end this for now.

5/30/00
Been awhile since this page was last worked on, time to work on it again, this summer will definetly be the time to do sheet music up I think. Oh yeah, I'm finally going to Anime Expo this year, YEAH !!!! So, anyone interested in helping my cause can donate to me if you want, then again you can always donate to me for next summer, i need money to go to JApan. Oh yeah, it's finally the beginning of summer for me, YAY, but i got to work, Booooooo. O Well got to get money somehow.

WEll click on the pic up above to go to the linking page for this site,, not much done but it's just the beginning again isn't it.

gonna add a couple of links extra that isn't available on the link page at the moment